my 19th birthday =D

after 1 year

i felt i grew soo much

physically and mentally

i learn to appreciate

therefore i wan to thank the people

who has no obligation

for celebrating my birthday

i am really happy, delightful, joyful, grateful

wat can i say... hmm

i never had such a wonderful birthday celebration

i felt the effort that everyone put in everything together

Firstly,

i wan to thank jianyi & chinyee for celebrating my birthday with me

and the super cool invisible man shirt

and coming over my place

to play the never ending monopoly

Secondly,

i wan to thank my baby's parents for buying me a cake

and the Angbao

i didn't realise they rmb my birthday

Thirdly,

i wan to thank my mum & dad for buying me a cake

and inviting all my relative over

during reunion dinner and celebrate

my dad's, brother's and my birthday

In addition,

also to the many MANY fb wallpost

wishing my happy birthday

it felt really great to wake up

to see a zillion of blessing

wishing my happy birthday

Finally!!!!

the woman behind the great celebration

i wan to say a big THANK YOU to

my dear sweetie little adorable cutie baby =D

she is the best of the best!

she spent so much time planning this special day

she even made me a card

a card that i never felt so heartfelt

love it to the maximum!!

my disturbing life.. fuck it

far too many things are beyond my control
just when i thought things get brighter
it all went back to square one
i feel i no longer noe wat is happiness
all i see is
saddness, emo-ness, depressed face
every-single-day
FML. i going to get cancer very soon.

nth gets better

Wee~!! i finally see the light


after a dreadful week
today mark the start of the next week!!
sorry ar.. my week starts on a Monday,
not Sunday


watch chipmunks "mouse movie"
nice movie for tiny children
though people like me still quite funny
*u got my spinning right round*


training is back.
i am motivated~!
somehow....
ready to get more chunky!
i got my oakley tanned-line
become indian soon.
black black

i have been wanting to please everyone

simply too much to please

ended up giving in for others

and alwaes got screwed up cause of this

i need a balance

i do not know wat is my problem

i shud have trust her

but it just dun feel right

maybe i was thinking a little too much

am i sensitive?

maybe it is just wat happened in the past

that make me trust no one

my mood is thrashed

i really hope my mum would cook everyday for me

i wan to feel love from my our parents

but the way they talk to me

just simply show that they never cares

i might seem to have everything

but actually, i have nothing

i am deprived of everything!!

she has everything, yet i have nothing

am i even matched for her

sometimes, i enjoy a little too much with her family

this amplify the love my parents gave me.

nothing

i noe i shudn't compare it like this.

but i can stop myself thinking this way

i think i really need help.

i need guidance

i need.....u